If I'm understanding this correctly, you're rebuilding your life after a struggle with addiction, mental health, or both?
If that is the case, congratulations and continued recovery to you.
Of course I am partial to American akitas, but I wouldn't recommend them for a first-time owner. They can be very challenging dogs.
Best for first timers on the image (my opinion only): Best:. Golden, German shepherd, Bernese, Newfie, Great Dane, Bloodhound, Poodle. Good: Schnauzer, Rott, Mastiffs. Not great first dogs but you will love them anyway: Corso, Mal, Akita
Not familiar enough with the Pyr shepherd temperament to mention it