My best friend is 6'3", has dirty blonde hair, a very deep voice, and grey eyes, and is weird. He acts weird and he has a strange face. I didn't think much at first, but over time I found myself attracted to him. Part of me wants to turn him into a total slut or forcefem him. The other wants him in me. I recently became more open about my feelings, and he was receptive to them. He doesn't love me, but he is into guys. He is accepting and responsive when I tell him gay shit like wanting to kiss him or fuck him. He is even down to marrying me for marriage benefits. I don't know whether I have much luck with him. For one, we live in different countries because of studies. I don't know man. I just became a hundred times gayer than I used to be after I met him. I was never this attracted to a guy before. I'm a 20 year old pooner.