I feel it too man. I've actually started seeing a therapist recently because of it. I forget if therapy is also part of that whole "jews run the world" narrative that's popular on imageboards, but I'd recommend it if you can't make things better yourself. Seeing one didn't make things 'okay' again, but CBT works.
>they don't even make vidya like they used to
not triple A, but I've had a much better experience with indie games. In fact I'd say that gaming is doing just as well as ever as long as you only pay attention to the indie scene. A lot of creativity and less scummy practices like day 1 dlc and micro transactions.