I find myself needing a whitepill more often than before. I will hit my 30s this year and there is little the world can offer me to keep me enticed in this clown bureaucracy for long. Job interviews are just lying sessions where a company interacts to an embellished fake version of you who pretends to be the goodest goy in the world, hence why I'm still NEET by choice. I'm only hanging on because I want to reach a stopping point on my mediocre story. I find myself not caring what happens to me much afterwards. What is even there to do after completing your life goal? Motivation is getting hard to come by lately.