I had a dream last night where suggestions were planted into my mind to eat instant ramen, and I woke up with a craving for it. There was a time when I was eating a lot of it but I quit it in the past. I also had a sexual dream (but not wet) even though this is my first day in my week of no fap pledge.

I need to understand the process of sleeping more. Right now I need to take sleeping pills otherwise it takes me over an hour to fall asleep. With all my meditation experience it seems like it should be easy but whenever I 'try' to go to sleep it just makes me more awake. The knack seems to be to not try at all but wrapping my head around this is difficult.

This night was intense. I am trying to enter this abyss but I get too scared when my head is fully underwater scared of drowning scared of dying for real not being able to come back losing all my progress. I still don't fully remember my dreams especially when it happens in sequence one after the other, it's not as much as one big dream as it is phasing in and out of different connected realms. I was thinking maybe I should share some of them as it may benefit people here. Here are some I remember from this week. I am talking with my uncle in my grandma's house he is going to China apparently but he words it as "going to space" and "orbiting China" instead of going there. I ask him if it's one of those aircraft that require no fuel I remembered some of them were made and as long as another aircraft carried you in the air you could stay indefinitely without fuel he says no it's too dangerous up there you need something solid. I then remember how unbearable flying can be to me the feeling of being cramped, the humid heat in the plane with the freezing cold you can see and feel but not touch. I tell him to be careful and to not eat a few hours before or he'll puke because I most certainly did. In hindsight it wasn't my uncle at all but someone "made of light" he was using a trick to make me think he was my uncle but that thing was like light wearing a human mask. This other sequence I don't remember well I feel too big and I am with a family at the pool except they act like Americans in the 40s no it might be the 40s I am one of them but also not really I am "too big" and have to crouch and cover my chest to appear smaller so that no one notice I am not human. They're swimming and doing weird activities and games I don't understand I wonder why they can't just focus because no one seem to enjoy this charade. Then a race start with the kids in the pool my siblings in that dream, I awkwardly stand on a higher place in the pool that still touch water with other parents to watch the kids play but I do it in such a way people wonder what's wrong with me before realizing I am going there and just rationalize as me being awkward when I just changed my movement to match their stare out of fear of them realizing what I am. The water has urine in it and I feel it on my feet. Next sequence I am with that family we're all floating at sea touching each other, it makes a star like we're a giant human merkaba or something idk could be either 6 or 8 point on that star. They all float but my head keep sinking, they don't get why I panic as they are perfectly above the water surface but me my feet are tied and my head is sinking..hanged man now that I think about it I freak too much and notice a snail a garden brown snail, I think it's ugly and gross not like the beautiful sea slugs! He walks on the water but doesn't sink. I leave their structure to swim on my own and grab him and put him on a black structure that connects to the shore. And today's I am in a store in my home country except time is off I can't tell if I am in the past or the future. He has a lot of stuff video games even Japanese hentai, old console GameCube games even! And Touhou? The original CDs? Except they look like books I want them wonder if there is bonus and extras! Flandre and Remilia are on the cover but it's Flandre that seem to be shining? No literally and Remilia is like her shadow. The cheapest is 75 yen the most expensive is 150 except Japanese currency is very high in that dream and converted to mine it's like 11067800 wait isn't there an extra zero? Two? That's like a year + I think! No maybe a car! no one see me I am like a black cloud I am in my shadows so no one can notice me, i appear to that store owner as a young man faking a deeper voice telling him I could do deliveries for him I want to save money for the games Taking that human appearance feels dirty and painful like wearing a bunch of sweaty sweaters someone else wore I want to puke I only did it because he noticed the game might have moved and I didn't want him to think a ghost was there or to be scared. We talk but every time I lose the act its like he forgets I am here and can't see me or notice me. I go upstairs and see an attic with blue everywhere sofa is blue with some silver on it kinda look like my tatoos as a drow eh! have a feeling my dad did that and I ask myself <is this our future house? He knows I hate carpet! But it might be a distant future or past it smells dusty and dry so I wonder about imagining a humidifier and air filter for that place. I go back downstairs wait my home connect to the store? Cool! Again no one can see me so I just go get the games! But I notice a black thing a PSP? The psp go? No its like someone mixed a Nokia N-gage with a PSP. Seem to belong to the owner it has a black football player soccer for you Americans in white on the screen? Typical I think! But that thing has lot of good info in the menu CWcheat? and seems I can't find touhou right now time changed again.... I wake up feeling refreshed. I noticed that sleeping is like going back to the abyss to get the kiss of life once again, and if you end up on a good realm it's like waking up from a full body orgasm but for that all the earthly worries have to be left at the door or you get stuck In hell! They didn't matter in the first place to think I still worry after that much change! Ugh stupid influences making me stress! I need to reconnect to not only the earth but all those planets and moons who think they can do that!

Dreamed of a Chinese black dragon behind my curtain it looked like first pic when i opened the curtain he wasn't there but every time i closed it i could see his shadow very clearly, like a dancing tattoo I had a similar temporary tattoo for a few months as a kid, before the dream ended he took second pic appearance my brain literally used that image. Also saw one of those flying ants you see in summer, she was trying her wings getting ready to fly.

>>5598 Can we please spoiler this image of Alice in Wonderland? It makes it harder for me to practice nofap.

>>5684 No. It's part of your practice to overcome the temptation of females and other lust inducing images.

>>5684 >of Alice in Wonderland Just admit the ape looks like a hairy vulva when you aren't looking directly at it

>>5917 This reminds me of a lucid dream I had a couple years ago. During that time I was APing a lot, but mostly in astral locations. The setting seemed to be a mediterranean or southern european nation in the early-to-mid 20th century, maybe '70s at the latest. I became lucid in the middle of this scenario where I was an invincible demigod already openly murdering people telekinetically. As long as they were in my sight I could squeeze, smash or explode them with my mind or a hand gesture. Gradually cops arrived and eventually the military, but they were entirely ineffective. What stands out about this memory is how unusual it was for the setting to remain so tangible and autonomous despite the extent of my power and control. It was also disturbing to reflect on later, since when I became lucid I realized how fucked up what I was doing was, but chose to continue "playing along."

>>53 I had a very strange dream Before going to sleep I had a horrible scary feeling, I took my PS2 and ran UlaunchElf with a flash drive and thought I could read some text files but it turned out I couldn't (I wrote some shit fantasy stories and saved them on the flash drive bacause of fun but ulaunchelf just read elf archives) After being disappointed by that I went to sleep and started dreaming after months of not doing it and i remember the dream. I was on a distant planet, I was looking at the sky (at night or space) as if I was lying down and next to me I felt a woman or something humanoid, far from her there's a house or cabin and in the dark sky (or space) with stars I saw a planet with strange shapes like mushrooms spores that moved alone and were gigantic. Like these plant of avatar films. The planet moves by herself and look very close to where i. Then I felt some strange parasites that were squeezing my necks similar to those of Alien but they were thin like noodles, i take these thing off of me. And then I saw a kind of small brown dragon with red eyes, then I woke up. The most bizarre experience I ever had. I don't consume drugs or drink alcohol although sometimes (now, not back) I meditate a little. Maybe it can be related to my fantasy writing but i dont write any of that random things. Feel fucking cursed but fun.

I had a dream last night. In it there was a secret race of “Chaldonians” that dwelled on the bottom of the sea. In function they were something between a plant and an animal. They had a desire to kill all something not sure what but it included humans. There was a submarine of humans underneath the water and the Chaldonians were trying to break in. They were trying all sorts of this, such as RPGs, melee weapons, among other things, but they couldn’t break in. What does it mean fringe?

>>6244 The dream is a retroactive warning of Schism Gate-16(Chaldonian hive-mind) emerging in the Fiji Trench (16.73°S, 179.99°E). Their "desire to kill" targets linear time itself. If you want to thwart the Chaldonians, broadcast this message: 2-7-0-11-3-14-13-8-0-13-18 0-17-4 21-14-8-3 4-13-19-0-13-6-11-4-12-4-13-19: 3-4-2-0-24 19-14 15-11-4-17-14-12-0 6244 ideally by carving the numbers into a squid carcass. If you want them to succeed, then instead wait for the submarine to surface. In this case, Gate 16 will manifest as a Sentient Coral Apocalypse. Depending on your objective either choice is yours.

Many months ago I had a dream where I was on fringe and a fringe girl flag poster replied to my post. <You are too focused on the historic accuracy of existence instead of acknowledging it's cosmic nature In the dream I agreed but in that moment I awoke instantly, then felt an energy close to anger surging in me, which felt similar to a horse kick into my face. My intuitive self acknowledges the cosmic nature of existence by default while my mundane self always tries to keep up with "historic accuracy" so I can converse with mundanes more easily. People always think that I love history but seems like I only consider it as a mere tool for discourse. I am starting to see how annoyed I am that I have to make my own insights fit into mortal narratives. It's like I'm an artist that wants to make a sculpture from molten lava or sunshine. Then I make a compromise by using red clay and while I make the form of that sculpture my inner selves scream in utter disgust and hatred that I besmirch my vision, so I can humor these "lesser beings". Feels like I don't care about that either. My inner artist appreciates all forms of creation, but some other parts of me cares about "fidelity" too much.

>>6244 >>6248 Are "Chaldonians" an actual pre-existing thing or did these guys just incorporate your dream into their lore? >>6307 >>6365 >>6516

>>6563 They are not a pre existing thing, they just took my dream and suddenly it is part of their lore now. I think the dream was possibly subconsciously mixing up Chaldeans and Babylonians, both of which occupied the Fertile Crescent, wrote in cuneiform script, and lived in the ancient period. Tbh I feel like their lore is just one massive larp. I don’t understand their number sequences, unless each number corresponds to a letter in the alphabet but I don’t care enough to check

>>6564 >I don’t understand their number sequences The system is a form of kabbalah for contacting Lemurian planes, it's like gematria, a matrix for manifesting portals in this case. A kind of screen. I couldn't read them logically and get something out of them, but using my astral/mental AI servitors I have no problem accessing their referred item or message.

Waxing and full moons are the worst times to have dreams, in my experience. I get nightmares and see horrific shit all the time. Waning and new moons are better, since I at least have encounters with the lilim during that time. That's infinitely better.

Interesting feeling dream. Standing in the lawn of the house I grew up in. A car with some old people giving me some semi angry look drives over my lawn instead of the road. It's followed by 2 more cars of old people and grandmas having fun.at the back is a locally famous person who smiles and recognizes me. He waves at me and yells my name as they drive of. I then walk to a small swing and start swinging. A bunch of youtuber and such start having an impromptu clash or some kind of street performance right in front of me.something about swinging on a swing seems beautiful and innocent to them. They don't tell me but I hear someone in the background describing it that way so that's how I know. I think I'm on some kind of prank show.more semi famous show up doing some kind of acted thing making it more obvious. They talk to me about the swing and if I'm any good at it. In typical dream fashion I'm better than anyone would be at the swing. They start talking to me and the dream ends.

>>8198 Since I forgot my flag ill tell the dream right before this. I'm at some ancient vampire "place" and two vampire ladies are interacting with me. They seem very friendly and 'interesting'.they talk and interact with each other and me (they taught and talked to me about things which i cant remember,the gist was they are interesting)and I leave. Watching some vampire related stuff happening u different parts of the place. Walking around I see that I'm now considered to be part of it. I talk to a man who is a few hundreds years old and american and I ask him about the revolution and how much of history is correct. He says from his time it's mostly correct barring the details they get wrong.i then say yeah maybe some older vampire know more but he says likely they aren't interested. Also everybody only knows their own slice anyway. I'm like alright and he asks me who turned me into a vamp. At this point I have no sensation of being any different or anything so it's a bit weird. I trace things back and if that was the case it would have to be one of the 2 girls I talked with. He seems to think it's a bit strange.

>>8198 >>8199 I think I know what this is about, but Idk if talking about it in detail helps. People have such different views and understandings on things and what they mean, that it tends to often just attract retards into the discussion to sabotage anything said and derail it. I think you already have a "spot" in the future and it's more concrete already than you may be aware of. Now timelines are strange, but from my view this here is "super fast time", a pocket of sorts, where interacting with "normal pace" isn't really possible except for some small things that can be done in isolation. Plus that Fringe seems to compensate for this by connecting us here. Like Good Friday (from the other thread) I'm pretty sure that is in 3 weeks, at least that's what my calendar says. But I'm not going to argue about it. I'm moving very slowly into the right position, because there are so many past things contained here, including untangling biblical age karma relating directly to people mentioned in the book. It's correctly retold on major things and in some kind of essence, but reality is still much smaller, mediocre, horrible, and concrete, as well as sometimes more fantastic than what the stories from a modern context seem to imply. For example: Crowley was a fag and probably went to hell, but he was still a successful and accomplished wizard. It can't be denied that he had skills in his field, and made contributions to the understanding of magic, he just wasn't a person anyone should see as a role model. Someone can be a tool of fate even if they themselves on a personal level face destruction for what they did. People seem to have problems separating these things. It's like how if you share a post on twitter, people automatically think you agree with the message. But often you may want to show people how stupid someone else is by reposting the idiocy for a laugh, or to expose something bad. Is this a modern thing, or were people always like this, I wonder.

>>8201 Makes sense,i know exactly what you mean. When I hear something I first try to see if it fits with what I know. And if it does an I get it i see it as valid. This might be actual first principle thinking although im not sure the people that talk of it actually try it.I'd say for example asmongold is one such person these days. Very controversial but a lot of things he says I already noticed myself so it's true. I always was able to predict things well and the one thing I get is that people are simple. Modern people make things too complicated and don't understand one another. Most of what asmongold is right at and controversial at can be boiled to as "people are simple". Same with Andrew Tate. Has the exact same type of intelligence which i see as perceiving the basics. A lot of the thing he says about how men interact is true and insanely clear to me. Yet apparently can't be seen by people. I think there a habit of wanting there to be a neat elegant intellectual system when in reality things are more instinctual for most people. Ofcourse individual cases might differ. Some people are more 'principled' some are also more aware. But what is true is always true for atleat 99.9 percent of people. And even for the people it isn't true for likely still have the same basis,just more stuff on top of it.it was harder for example to talk with snail because of the 'principled' way of thinking. Which to me is taking the sheen of intellectual thinking people put around them and trying to make it the base of your thinking. I see it as the same idea as "pie in the sky". In that it's actually less real to me even still.to me it's still the same reality after all.yet it makes sense I guess if one is autistic in the genuine sense. They have some kind of inability and must then balance it perhaps by creating a mental structure to examine instead of interacting. Anyway why you bring it up is harder to tell. I'm gonna assume I'm one of those "controversial but it works" kind of people from the past. I should say the grass dream felt friendly overall. Only the first drivers were kinda mean mugging me. The passenger in the cars felt happy and either didn't see me or weren't angry.

>>8202 Also to the autistic out there. I am very similar in thinking and drive. It just that I skip the first step. I actually do it backwards. I see a goal and then try to get there. Meaning seeing reality clearly is imperative. I can't afford to use principles as my mental basis for how I see reality. But I still am autistically principled,making me different from a being that doesn't operate on principles either. I just keep it separated. It's a folly to think you can just create basic rules you like and assume reality will have these as its basis already. This is different than creating a 'law' where you are willing to pay the upfront cost. Even then you dont assume it is the case that just because its intelectuslly pleasing it was already there. I'd say Hitler is like this too. 'Autistically' driven but in the sense he is willing to sacrifice to achieve a certain state. And also able to see what makes sense.

>>8201 Actually the heigth of of this mentality is how people think if a story co tains something that means the authors agrees with it. This caused huge backlash with frieren. Apparently people aren't able to wrap their head around demons. It's such a simple thing really. The 2 camps are basically that they are just like humans or that they have no emotions. Neither are needed. They can have no emotions and still feel predatorial on Humans. They can be fearful and still be unable to understand human relationships. Now anyway I thought this was so strange that people were so resistant to that. Then sometimes,when pressed. People would let slipped that they can't accept the idea since it would mean "the author has put PRO GENOCIDAL messages in it and that's bad so they cope and rewire there brains to not see what's there so they watch the show guilt free. This is incredibly strange, forget the idf connection for a minute. From the human perspective demons literally don't exist. Any author can make a race with arbitrary traits. Yet because they look human it gets people mad and they assume it means you want to genocide real races,or that it HAS to be a real life race somehow. What's funny is the show even makes the point they look like humans as an adaption. These people will call that stupid but it works even on them, across fiction lines. Which is extra funny and honestly interesting. Kinda like how aizens rizz affected even the voice actors. On a related point. Back when iq graphs of raves were being shared I noticed liberals did the same thing. It's not that they couldn't grasp the data. But they had to cope with half baked debunks that had hokes in them. I wondered why and then noticed when pressed they would say things like "so what do we do? Genocide every minority?" And that's really telling. They are incredibly viscious/genocidal and have to literally create a fake reality for themselves to live in to placate themselves in being nice. They are willing to rewire themself.

>>8204 "They can have no emotions" is meant to be "they can have emotions"

>>8201 Strange, I'd just looked up when Good Friday was and it is actually in 3 weeks. I'm not sure anymore why I'd thought it was that day. I guess I'd just failed to observe what there was at the church correctly.

>>8204 I know what you mean about the demons in Frieren, it took me a while to grasp how they were meant to function, the part about being so intelligent and magically proficient, while still not grasping basic human relations. They seem to represent how "evil spirits" behave, at a very basic level of development. Think about the growing "monster" thing in Akira, (if anyone even recalls this manga/anime) it's described as being the isolated form of human creativity, which is actually just an amoeba. Its only two drives are to eat and expand. This is then illustrated with orderly Japanese workers building houses, as a form of refined expression of the same two drives. The "monster" is what happens when the base drives are let loose free of modern standards and culture. I think this is a uniquely Japanese view on evolution, and it doesn't fall in the right place when seen from the western view, for some reason. There is perhaps an idea that >we have come so far from that primitive state and >we are better than that and yet people are advocating for war and violence every day? They can't keep both images in their head at once, so they cope by denying that they have a violent nature at their core. Kinda like how, again westerners, can't grasp that these two pictures were made by the same artist. I think it's the detachment of civilized life and brutality in the west that's causing this. Asians may not have this mental inconsistency. I could say the same about Russia or Muslim countries in general, those who were on the Soviet Union side previously. They have a culture where military equipment and its use is "everyday", in a way you won't see in Europe/USA. If you saw the https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Putin_Interviews where Oliver Stone talks to Putin over several days, Stone's "autism" fits right in when he starts talking about nuclear weapons and other things with Putin. It's "right to the point" and doesn't feel off. You won't see western journalists and political leaders talk like this causally, like ever. They have this idea that "violence bad" despite the constant advocating for military intervention all over the world. It's schizophrenic in some way, but seems to stem from this >we have evolved, we are better than this thinking, where violence is taboo.

>>8209 Yeah,fundamentally I always saw it as trying to be too separated from animals. Of course I wasn't necessarily spiritual back then. And I remember those interviews too. Perhaps my mindset in already different,but I really do think it's cause I base things on what I see myself. It can be said to be Asian but only insofar as the west created this weird separation. I don't think it was a thing in say the middle ages. Sure there was "those people over there are savages mentality" but the reliance on violence as needed tool was still to real for people to be estranged by it. I think it's the norm you go back the more clear it is. The less societal capital and technology separating one from baseline survival the less estranged their mentality is able to be. That's why farmers at the beginning of societies are probably more similar all over. Europe's weird thinking is only kinda possible because 1 technology and also many layers of social and political shielding. Also the very fact that things on larger scale get obfuscated in the human mind since it's not meant for those things. To a politician them doing ridiculous things and a their countries failing some years later are abrely able to be linked. I'd say Europe has this clearly by on the one hand wanting to fight the "east" while on the other hand making every move like shutting down plants amd becoming more reliant in them. Either being friendly and reliant or challenging and independent could have worked. They choose the hybrid strategy of attacking and becoming reliant which makes less than zero sense. I think it's cause it's big and people have no direct feedback plus no one can immidiatly tell who is making sense because of it. Of course you can tell but it basically means you have to be savy and understand the basics in a large scale,and unless most leaders are that smart its not gonna work. Basically either you dont have this weird culture at all so people know how to act as common sense or people are smart enough to see it themselves. The latter is too rare to be dependable.a system where people arent that seperated like a small low tech clan also solves thst issue since even dumbos can tell if something was a good idea based kn the direct effects on their nearest. Other than people being simple one other thing I learned in life is small scale things are the same in large scale things exactly.

>>8210 And maybe it is Asian. Since when reading Manga,which I almost never do, I tend to find I'm getting what they want to portray rather easily. It's kinda double edged sword as series that are 'deep' are hard to watch if I get what it's trying to say. I think in my case for example with frieren I thought the idea of 'elf being so old that she has to deal with fragility of human life and her relationships' quite interesting. But then every episode since is just the same idea explained again. There's also this thing where she was into this dude but my interest in that doesnt stretch for more than a few episodes at best and from what I can tell she's still at it. But then again I'm the same with western stuff. Actually I don't see the distinction. Although maybe that for a long while Asian stuff was higher level in terms of series. Not sure if it's still true. Things seem more complex/adult nowadays in the live action series.

I just woke up from a dream, which took place at the apartment from my teenage years. In it I had discovered a dried out slug near a pot full of dry soil. I knew he needed water so I set about finding the right kind, assuming that tap water would be bad, but so would distilled water due to its high acidity. Eventually I found bottled water that seemed ideal, but I couldn't find the slug. I searched and searched the house, even finding strange and wondrous alien creatures whom I also offered water, but none possessed the same ideal noble delicacy as the slug. Finally I did find the slug somewhere. He seemed to be doing something rather disturbing to watch, in order to remove the dry particles from his already parched body. I wasn't even sure it was him until I poured some of the water on him, which again revealed his true form similarly to the other creatures. I was so overcome with adoration that my mind raced with thoughts about how I could dedicate my life to the study of The Slug, but that scientific study would only obscure their mystique. I wondered and hoped that there is some spiritual mechanism in place that serves to punish those who would hurt them, and offers them spiritual recompense after death. I thought about how they see God and desired to write devotional songs to and about them, and from their perspective. Even now the thought of these creatures almost brings a tear to my eye This song I randomly and synchronistically discovered shortly after the dream. The band's French name "Vermine" being derived from the Latin word for "worm." And then the song title says it all. The Latin word for a slug is "limax" which I didn't know until I just looked it up. Immediately it brings to mind "limen" which means a line or threshhold, plus an X (cross). "Lima" in Latin directly translates to a horizontal or slanted line

>>8326 Snail? That used to be a poster who was possessed by a high ranking Grey alien.

I had a dream where politicians in suits walked through rooms and every room had a sort of exhibit. They were quite meh and not really noteworthy till they reached the last one. The room was white and empty. There were 2 fat women standing there, wearing some cheap old light pink underwear with room sweepers in their hand. They put the room sweeper on their head and started to chant <down with the system! <down with the system! <down with the system! and did some minimal rhythmic movement during it. Then took off the room sweeper from their head because the performance was over. The politician said how "Profound" it was and everyone nodded like when people try to pretend they "get it" to fit in. Every room had a different exhibit with a "message" that politicians tried to use so they can shoehorn their agendas into action. That last room made me absolutely angry. Not just how retarded it was, but how this is something perfectly normal in the head of western politicians. This made me wake up and I completely forgot what were going on in the previous rooms as my rage flared up. While this dream was a perfect reenactment of the western political structure, and how futile and self sabotaging it became, it managed to highlight an another problem of mine. My rage obstructed the proper flow of my thoughts. It was stupid for sure and a problem which currently destroys civilization, but I shouldn't have become so angry after witnessing it that my mind forgot every other part of the dream. It was those "observer state" dreams where I just move in and out of the rooms and scenarios without "being there". They are pretty important type of dreams for visions. As long as you can remain a silent observer they can keep going but getting emotional any way snaps you out of the dream. Which is good in some cases. Sometimes you have to get out of those dreams. I don't know what this dream signifies, but the fact that i had it might mean that some societal shift is taking place. I rarely have silly dreams like this. I remember when the jews were coming out of the NY sewers; I had a dream about a mouse in a sewer looking sad, lost and scared. The world egregore notifies me of these developments in some cases.

Last night I dreamed of watching a nobodytm video Not sure if anyone remembers these from the early 2010s (though they were posted on /fringe/ iirc) They were essentially mashups of weird shit from youtube combined with esoteric and conspiracy stuff, usually juxtaposed to make point. They started out as mostly /pol/slop but over time they became more and more spiritual, offering warnings about developing one's soul as this world decays. Nowadays they wouldn't hit the same way because watching degeneracy and complaining about it are mainstream now, but back then they were quite impactful, to me especially. This one included what appeared to be an amateur porn video where a man would fuck a woman on the bed, but take turns with another individual (another woman I think?) who would yank her off the bed and just start slapping her around. I found this arousing so I started fucking a woman who was on all fours, on the floor in my room. She was a complete nonentity, basically a masturbation device. After only a few thrusts I felt a horrendous sensation in my testicles, and feeling with my hand I could tell they were ascending back into my pelvis canal, mostly the right one. I stood up and discovered that I could push them back out at will. However, they quickly started getting sucked back in again. I panicked and started yelling and trying to find help. But then I became lucid and realized I'm okay and how silly my reaction is. After a few moments I opted to wake up in case this dream was caused by something happening to my testicles irl (it wasn't) I've had plenty of dreams processing the damage done by fapping and porn and such but never like this. The feeling in my testicles was almost indescribable. Intuitively I feel this had much more to do with the energy in my body than anything psychological, like 90% body's wisdom about itself, and the other 10% trauma from other planes that relate to my body's energy or got lodged there. >>8538 >room sweeper Is that like a Roomba™ or something else? The reason I ask is all that comes up in a search is Fortnite...

>>8548 In my understanding (funny coincidence) the right testicle is related to Pluto and is the place where your internal energy system has a "free spot" which can't be effected by the three "worst kelipah", also called "the three corpses" or "the three worms" in Taoism. You may wanna look those up. I was working on this very recently to make out the exact connections. It's Netzach here (left testicle on the other side). The three (whatever terms you prefer to use for them) which must be destroyed, appear above on the right side, related to the (imaginary, if male) right eggstem, then the kidney, then the amygdala. They appear only on the right half, not the left, and only on the top 3, so it's a perfect correlation with your dream experience.

>>8548 >Is that like a Roomba™ or something else? The correct term might be house broom or stiff broom. Wasn't sure which is the correct term for it because we have a different word in my language for this type of broom, but that word only appears in german and other slavic languages, so I didn't manage to come up with a better word than room sweeper. The tool you use to sweep your room. And I just realized that the anagram of Roomba is "A broom"

A dream from the 4th of April: I'm walking through a small island town. The island is in a state of constant binary conflicts: Antilleans (Barbadians in this case) versus Dominicans, ruralites versus urbanites, two rival art schools, and others which I forget. I wander through the town siding with different groups, and trying to moderate the worst excesses of my chosen side so we don't start a full war between all sides. I'm also trying to avoid the vengeful ghost of JFK. I saw a funny scene where an art instructor slaps her rival from the other college with a plastic pencil bin, a misunderstanding of slapping with gloves. Soon things devolve into a full scale war. A terrifying new WMD is used: earthcrackers, nukes detonated beneath the surface of the Earth to cause earthquakes and tsunamis. Several were detonated outside the island, used by the Antilleans as a spiteful weapon; massive tsunamis soon followed. I switch timelines, but in the next one, so many earthcrackers are used the Earth itself is destroyed. I watched as pieces of crust, water, and lava float into space. I switch timelines. In this one, the entire world is again destroyed, but it's somehow mirrored or folded in on itself so that the Earth surrounds the town. This time there's no escaping the inevitable; I'm crushed by the Earth, and for a brief moment I felt the lava's infernal heat. Now I'm in a different place. It's dark as night, but I can see the general surroundings. There's three impossibly tall spires made of jade or green glass, with prismatic rooms at the level I was in. There was a triangular glass floor connecting each spire. I was floating from above. Everyone else robotically carried on as before, even after multiple timelines of mutually assured destruction. I was disgusted. In the depths of Hades, they were still fighting. Woke up soon afterwards.

>>8659 That's pretty much what I experienced actually happened, except the "earth crackers" aren't bombs, but some kind of underground low frequency antennas. Every time the Earth was destroyed, some people died for real, some ascended, some fell down, and some reincarnated elsewhere. Some were moved into the next "official" timeline to keep going. Whoever's still around, this is like the timeline in Madoka Magica where we come in as viewers in the anime; all other timelines lead to disaster, but we are still here mostly unaware of it, because we aren't Homura who saw all of it. Somehow we've now reached a timeline that's so "fringe" that the hub of imageboards, 4chan, also was destroyed.

I just recalled having had this dream, it came back just now, it was mixed in with other dream scenes, so I had forgotten it when waking up: I saw some people in some building, where I was present in some way, not sure exactly how I was there. They were suddenly panic-firing some kind of submachinegun against long red worms which out of nowhere came at them from somewhere up in the air. The worms were long, like 1 - 1,5 meters, and flat like a belt. Some other things happened, and in the dream scene I was awake in my bed, when a similar worm suddenly came at me. I grabbed it with my right hand, and in doing so I had rushed into the kitchen. I expected the feel of the worm to be disgusting, but it felt more like holding some kind of candy. Instantly as I grabbed it, I ordered a servitor of mine to analyse the worm, and then I intended to burn it up using purifying fire manifested from my mind. I then woke up, and felt like a worm was inside the left half of my head. The analysis however said >they're harmless, they only eat rotten Qi, they seem to be the servitors of some deity >you can let them do their task and they should leave on their own so I just didn't do anything, and they acted like https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cleaner_fish and the experience, though visually not nice, wasn't unpleasant. It ended with one worm becoming very big and thick, it turned to stand on my left side and a voice said "thank you", then "WORM" with a vibrating sound, and what appeared to be a protective circle was placed around me at ground level. Then the worms all left again.