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>Different energetic circuits or body templates.
>I can be an angel and we can talk at that frequency but most of my individuality is gone there.
ah yeah I get it.
>I follow my mother. She is..strict but you know what to expect. In the end it depends on what you want.
I've been connecting more to the earth/underworld recently than prior.
the strict reminds me of a call to action I got recently from taking too long to get where I need to be. it got me good, part of me still wants to alt+f4 myself in rebellion to not having what I want dearly/having to pick myself up and spend time alone before I can get it.
I assume it's more of a mother thing since I'm dealing with being more organized on earth and in the world.
>I rarely get serious, only if threatened tbh
I do it for healings and clearings and yeah also threats. Though what I call on depends on what I'm doing, but I'd still consider it serious but different flavors whether I'm asking for something dear to me, or protecting self/aligning a healing/clearing to work as well as it can, or doing on the spot self defense.
It's all self defense really, or defense of what I hold dear, when I'm aligning to something higher. But it's pre-emptive when I'm setting the tone for a healing or prayer. Sometimes an afterthought because I ask for something carelessly. Like when I worked with a star of fortune recently I felt it move pretty strongly making a path for me and I was like oh shit yeah let's backtrack and align that to divinity and manifest that with ease and grace on my path, I don't wanna get btfo lol.
>They only give comforts when i am down; usually they yell at me to get me back into track, so mean :'(
Yeah I'm only really upset at them when I'm in a lot of pain. and I know it's at least in part if not mostly self induced and that it's teaching me to be better but I don't like it.
I like to joke that I'm in an abusive relationship with god at this time because of this. in this case god being the all-that-is, since as far as I know it's both the painful lesson and the saving grace and if that happened in a human relationship it feels abusive.
>What i mean is when someone is very bad with me i might suspect they're just doing some very advanced thing..only to realize no they're just that narrow.
At this point I'm taking people at their word unless it feels weird and relying on my own self alignment and intuitive double checking so it doesn't lead somewhere bad. (and I step aside if I'm not sure, to clear my energy and then check, if someone's energy is clearly influencing my intuition)
I've definitely been in the state where I can feel what someone really is projecting but it's not a frequent place I'm at.
>This makes me think of the iron cross but i would have to look deeper.
dunno what the iron cross is. But what I mean is I call get to center/heart, then ask for a pillar of light from heaven/sun and a pillar of light from earth, to set the tone/help me remove stuff and bring it where it ought to be, so it doesn't come back or go into someone else as easily. Sometimes it still does, I had a shaman tell me I purged something into him and the next ceremony I asked the beans (beings) to help keep anything I purge from going into anyone else so that it go into earth and heaven/wherever it needs to go.
>You ever watch demon prince enma?
no, but it's in my bookmarks now. dunno when/if i'll get to it.
>I was being carried by the heart; too much love not enough pragmatism.
Yeah, I've been there. Might still be there.
(:
A teacher of mine said love is the most powerful force in the universe.
It makes sense to me. There's stronger things outside of this universe but love is the engine in this place, the center.
Be well, earth-friend. 🙏🤍